● Alone2017 :
You see the father has a baby due this month with somebody else and I have nobody or no one
● Alone2017 :
I told him that I had something to tell him today and he blocked me. I didn't bother trying to say anything else
● Alone2017 :
You see we have a toxic relationship and I know I shouldn't of slept with him unprotected then but
● Alone2017 :
I was told by my doctors a while back that I have very low fertility my chances of getting pregnant are next to nothing
● Alone2017 :
You may be wondering why I would want to abort a child if I have low fertility
● Alone2017 :
You probably see this as a miracle and yes it would seem that way
● Alone2017 :
But I have nothing and no one that is why I'm here on this chat room
● Alone2017 :
If I had someone just anyone to turn to maybe I could keep him/her but I don't and I don't want to suffer alone
● Alone2017 :
and if I keep this baby that is what will happen. I live a pretty lonely life no family around me and no friends
● Alone2017 :
Only business associates that I would never turn to for friendship and now that he's blocked me I am completely alone
● Alone2017 :
If anyone is there please message me
● AnnaH07 :
ok.. maybe I'll just say it to the void
● AnnaH07 :
I try not to count the years
● AnnaH07 :
but every child I see brings me joy and breaks my heart
● AnnaH07 :
I told myself it would be ok
● AnnaH07 :
because I would do it when the time is right
● AnnaH07 :
but time is running out and the guilt is setting in
● AnnaH07 :
I know they say the time is never right
● AnnaH07 :
but what life can i provide when I can barely take care of mine?
● AnnaH07 :
how do i make peace with the idea that i might not have my own child in this life time?
● AnnaH07 :
that i gave up my one chance?
● AnnaH07 :
but the desire doesnt go away with logic
● AnnaH07 :
how do I support myself through this?
● AnnaH07 :
finding help online is awful
● AnnaH07 :
good luck to anyone who stumbles upon this